Quick update...

Well, we're getting settled in the new place. The "to-do" list is still very long, but what what can you do but chip away at it? This morning's weight- 147.2. Feels good to be back in the 140's. To be honest, I expected to be up a little this morning since I did some drinking yesterday. I tried to be smart though and kept my food low carb and skipped dessert. I stuck the leftover desserts in the back of the fridge so I don't have them staring at me every time I open the door and the other dessert sitting on the counter is covered in foil. Out of sight, out of mind.
Anyway, that's the quick update. This week's goal is to get back to exercising. I'm going to take the kids for a run this afternoon and tomorrow I'll hit the weights. I'd like to run and lift weights at least 3 days (each) this week.
Moving forward....

Packing up the scale

Literally, I'm packing up the scale this morning. We're moving. I've been packing and sorting and getting rid of stuff for a while, but it's getting to crunch time. The scale has been dropping then going back up. Essentially, I'm maintaining my weight right now since I'm bouncing up and down within a 1 lb range. I could leave the scale out for a few more days, but to be honest it's not helping me to see the number "unchanged". It will probably do some good to ignore the number and just take care of the things I need to take care of. I'm concentrating on keeping things lower carb because I really don't want to gain during the move. My jeans are back to feeling comfortable and despite what the scale is telling me, I'm feeling good. I've been exercising (except for the couple days last week when I was sick) which I'm finding is almost essential to maintaining a positive outlook.
Anyway, hope everyone has a great week. Check ya later!

Goal Update

So this was a good "on track" week for me meaning that I felt in control, ate mostly lower carb and didn't binge. There were a few stressful things that popped up, but I made it through without turning to food. I REALLY wanted to a few times but I resisted because I am sick and tired of doing this up/down thing with the scale. I got in a few good runs this week and some strength training. There's always room for improvement, but I'm getting back into the swing of things. This coming week I really want to concentrate on eating more vegetables. More often than not I reached for something un-veggie for a snack or meal. And guess what, I lose more when I eat more vegetables (IMAGINE THAT!??). This morning's weight- 153.6. Loss of 4.2 lbs. 10 more pounds to go to get back to my lowest weight. Obviously I didn't hit my previously set goal of 149 by today's date. I knew I wasn't going to though since I spent the first week of January almost completely out of control. I'm not trying to sweep it under the rug, but dwelling on it won't change anything. I'm doing better, I have a plan and here are the new weight goals:

Feb 1st- 149
Feb 15th- 145
Mar 1st- 141
Mar 15th- 137
Apr 1st- 134 goal

So here's to a great week! I'm going to plan my dinners for the upcoming week and then hit the grocery store.....

Edit: For those of you who read this post earlier and saw the picture with the quote- After a little research into WHERE the pic came from, I decided to take it down. I wasn't comfortable posting something from a girl who is 103 lbs and struggling with an eating disorder. My apologizes for not paying enough attention to details!!!

The TRUTH

Soooo, ummmm, yeeaaahh, I've been very bad. I'm talking binges, carb overload, massive gains. I feel like crap & my jeans barely fit (the ones that were getting too big). I've drawn the line in the sand, and it stops today. I've set myself up for success by having good stuff in the house, and finally getting my head right. Today's weight- 157.8. Yup, 14.2 lbs up from my lowest weight. While I'm a little pissed at myself, that's unproductive. I went for a run this morning with the kids, that's productive. I have a healthy dinner planned, also productive.
I have to believe that eating the junk will send me off the rails. I can't keep lying to myself that "I can handle it" when it comes to some of my trigger foods. There are certain things that I just can't eat because it creates a cascade effect.
My previous weight goals are all screwed up now, so I'll have to sit down and create a new timeline. Stay tuned....
Here's to a great week!

The Cheesecake....

Cheesecake, CHEESEcake, CHEESECAKE!! I hear it calling to me from the fridge. While it's tempting to go get a slice and nosh away, here I sit at the computer, blogging. Much more constructive, I do believe. Why do I want cheesecake (other than the obvious... because it's there)?? It's 7:30 pm and everyone else is asleep or at least tucked into bed. I'm slightly bored, hence the urge to eat, and hey, there's cheesecake and treats in the house lol. I really tried to get the stupid thing out of the house today but hubby says he wants to eat more of it. Bugger it...really?! You complained that it was dry, and you don't even really like cheesecake that much!
:SIGH:
Okay, yes, I'm being dramatic. But it's entertaining me.

Soooo, I think I've got enough control now to walk past the refrigerator to get my book. I may yell at the cheesecake on my way through, but the urge to eat it has mostly subsided...amazing how that works sometimes ☺
Goodnight all!

Stop the insanity....

Hey there party people! Well, I survived Christmas. I'm a few pounds heavier, so I guess now the work begins again. As much as I want to dive into the leftover candy and cheesecake this morning, I won't. I've got to stop the insanity at some point, and this morning is as good a time as any. As long as I don't indulge first thing in the morning, I'm usually pretty good about staying away from the "treats" (until late afternoon rolls around). I'm still working on a plan for the pre-dinner time frame. I haven't quite figured it out yet, but I'm working on it. I'm thinking gum and hot tea may play an integral roll in my afternoons for a while....

I sat down this morning and set up a concrete timeline to get to my goal weight. Having a time frame is generally helpful for me, but I realized that I hadn't done one in a while. It's time to get back to basics and start using the tools that have helped me lose weight in the past. One of those things is setting mini goals, so here they are-

Mini Goal Weights:
Jan 15th- 149 lbs
Feb 1st- 145 lbs
Feb 15th- 141 lbs
Mar 1st- 137 lbs
Mar 15th- 134 lbs Final goal

I'm not 100% sure what my exact weight is today, and I really don't care. My jeans are fitting snug, and that's really all I need to know. The plan this week is to get back to basics....exercise, eat plenty of vegetables, protein & good fats and did I mention exercise? Gotta make use of the new workout clothes I got for Christmas!
Onward and upward...oh wait, onward and downward ☺ Happy Monday!
*UPDATE: I just got home from a run. Haven't been running much lately, but the mood struck me once I was out there. Ended up running 6 miles!

Forging on...

Fighting, scratching, clawing, dragging. I'm not gonna lie, things have been tough lately. I could give you a list of excuses reasons, but the truth is, they really aren't important. I have allowed myself to justify poor eating and bingeing "because of....". Post-Thanksgiving was a bit of a nightmare food-wise. Over the past few days I've managed to break the cycle and turn things around, but some of the urges to "EAT< EAT< EAT" are still there. Thankfully I've realized (having done this a time or ten) that once I severely limit sugar and carbs, the voices in my head urging me on start getting quieter and easier to shush.
So where does that leave me? Well, I'm up a few pounds on the scale, but I'm okay with it. I've stopped the upward movement and started back down. Exercise has fallen off drastically so next week I'm really going to concentrate on making time to get my burn on.
Just keep pushing, moving forward and searching for the right path....