1. Actively trying to lose weight
2. Rebounding weight gain (and thinking how I've got to start losing again)
3. Pregnant (gaining massive amounts & thinking how I'll lose it, post natal)
I joined Weight Watchers for the first time at 18, but I had already been through at least one "losing" and "rebound" cycle on my own. And now at 31 I realize I've spent almost half my life up to this point thinking about my weight. If not in an actively "trying to lose weight" cycle, then in an actively "gaining" cycle or pregnant and thinking about how to lose. W.O.W. Seriously.
Truth is, I'm tired of trying to lose weight.
I just want to live my life, without the obsession of trying to lose weight.
Could I stand to lose a few more pounds? Possibly.
Am I happy in my current place? Yes.
Would my world improve if I lost 7 more pounds? Nope, I really don't think so.
My body, it likes this spot. It hangs out at 150(ish) without me really trying. I eat. I workout. I live. And my weight stays pretty stable without me thinking about it too much (as long as I'm feeding it well and not going crazy and stuffing my face with junk).
I've been saying I want to maintain this weight for a while, but to be honest it was mostly just talk. I still had it in my head that I would lose just a few more pounds. Now, after stepping back and looking at the truth of my life thus far, I'm FINALLY feeling like it's okay to maintain this weight. (It really wasn't before...even though I was saying it was).
The thing is, I really don't know how to live my life "in maintenance". I guess I'll have to learn!
Living a full, satisfied life sounds good to me! Getting out of the "must lose more weight" mindset is not going to be easy but I need this. I may change my mind in a month or a year and decide to give it another go, but for now I'm "done", and I'm good with where I am.
I looked through and found some old photos through the years. I thought it would be interesting to see, remember, and share. Some of these pictures make me sad and a little depressed. Looking at the years I've spent bouncing around weight-wise is difficult. It also makes me realize that it's okay maintain here. It made me realize that I have come a long way. I know how to not regain significant amounts like I used to (we're talking 30+ lbs, not 10). I still have things to work on, I'm not delusional, but I also know what works for me, and how to eat in a way that helps me feel my best. Those are big steps in the right direction!
Are you ready for a look into the last 14 years? Here goes....
Obviously, these pictures are not in order. I just thought you'd like to see a snapshot over the years.
Stay tuned... I'm going to take some new pictures tomorrow, embracing the hard work I've done and happy in the place I am now.