Monday, July 29, 2013

I will keep fighting....always.

I'm going to say a quick "Thanks" to Jeanette for checking in on me.  Things have been all over the place.  I've been struggling mentally, which spreads out to all other areas....sleep, food, exercise.

I feel inadequate. I feel invisible.  I feel unimportant. I feel sad and lonely. And I feel stupid for feeling these things because I DO have a good life. 

I am trying.  I know that cleaning up my diet (again) will be one the things that helps me feel better.  Tomorrow I start another Whole30. I'm actually thinking a Whole60 is in order since 30 days doesn't seem to be long enough to undo my disordered thinking.  I've got to get out of the binge cycle.  I've got to stop obsessing about my food and percentages of fat/protein/carbs.  I've got to stop sabatoging myself when I get on the scale and see progress.

I'll just keep battling my demons.

I won't give up.

For those of you who have read my blog for a while, I'm sorry if I sound like a broken record and you've heard this all before.  Bear with me.  

Before I go, I'll leave you with a few pictures from our family vacation.  

One of my favorite shots!

Interesting flower....


Be thankful for what you have.  Smile.  Be unique.  Keep moving forward...


REBYRYAN said...

You are Awesome. Don't ever forget that! I've been struggling a lot lately too. Changing a lifetime of bad eating isn't an easy thing to do...especially when society as a whole tends to promote those bad eating habits. But you really are doing great and have inspired so many. I think he fact that you are "real" is what keeps me reading. I know you make mistakes but then you pick yourself up and make changes. And THAT is what inspires me and makes me want to keep trying.

Jeanette said...

It's still a struggle for me, too, even though I've been more successful this year than in the past. Most of us are trying to undo a long, long past of doing it wrong - it takes a long, long time of working on our brains and bodies to get it right!!

Katherine said...

Thank you for your honest post. I am at a struggle point myself and at least I have now learned to note them for what they are. Trying to get up myself, dust it off and get back to living a healthy lifestyle. Nice to know at times that you're not alone. Keep it up - you're worth it!! :)

Jess @ PaleoJess said...

Again Tiff this is where I'm at. I just can't seem to get over binge eating and 30 days won't do whole until whenever is called for. I haven't done a blog post about it yet because I'm just not in the right frame of mind to do it, when I say binge eating disorder I mean I BINGE and its not good at all, the binges where starting to become every 2 days due to work/home stress and it was just getting too much for me.