Jump start

Weight Watchers here I come! I started doing the plan while I was on vacation (my mom gave me some of her old material), and I lost 3 lbs. Seriously, I'm in a little bit of shock. I've done WW in the past with good results, but I felt like I was eating alot while I was gone. So, I'm going to try and follow on my own at home for a while. It gives me more focus and a goal on my daily plan, which is exactly what I needed. I got home from vacation and already got started back into walking. I did over 5.5 miles today. I'm on a roll. This gave me the kick start I needed. Now I have my goal of running the 5K and a new goal of 195 lbs by that time. I can do this!

Wow!

Just have to give myself a pat on the back really quick. I ran a 1/2 mile today. I know, it's not much, but I did it. I was out for my walk and decided I was feeling good so I should jog a bit and I did. I could have gone farther but I figured I should start slow! No use getting so sore I can't walk tomorrow. I felt good when I got home. Like I accomplished something. Of course I felt completely self-conscious doing it, but yeah, that's normal for me. No matter what, even if I'm walking I am paranoid that people are laughing at me or looking at my boobs bounce (seriously, that's what I think about). But I jogged just the same...go me!

Goals

I haven't been in the right mindset lately. I think hubby's foul mood rubbed off on me. He's stressed so I get unhappy as well (and eat). But, I'm done. I put a few pounds back on that I had lost, that's just frustrating. So, I decided I needed to come up with a goal that I can strive to reach. Something short term that is reasonably attainable.
The plan- run a 5K on June 13th. That gives me 2 months to get in the shape I need to run. Today, I'm going for a walk. If I can walk 5 days in the next week I will have a good start. The next three weeks I want to walk, then start throwing a few runs in there. The other goal I have is to get under 2oo lbs by June 13th. That's 8 weeks to lose 10 lbs. Totally doable! I'm ready. I need to stop making excuses.
Yes, I realize that this post is like so many others I've written. I actually find that depressing. But, I have to keep trying. I can't just give up! I do not want to be the size I am, so I have to fix it.

More normal today...

Again, for the past week or so, I was in this emotional place, that I couldn't seem to control. I looked back at prior posts and figured out that it has to be a hormonal thing. Just about a month ago I was going through the same thing. I have these mood swings, anger for no good reason and a general funk that seems to fall over me. I can't seem to get much of anything done, which makes me feel worse. Thankfully, today I feel more normal. I am a little out of sync still, but better than before. I guess I just have to roll with it. Anticipate when it is coming, and deal with it as positively as possible. Knowledge is power right?